Roadblock...

In general, Monday nights can be tough.  The fun of the weekend behind you, the long week ahead.  I'm usually thankful for work, but a little overwhelmed and if it snowed three feet of snow tonight and we had to use one of our snow days already, I really wouldn't mind.  Oh Monday, why can't you be more like Friday.

I'm glad to be home tonight though.  Watching some CW hanging out with the puppy.  But then I thought, "Wait.  Isn't this exactly what I was doing two years ago?  The exact same thing?  Is that bad?"  It's amazing how the world has taught us to always push forward.  Get ahead in life, work harder, just get over it and move on.  If you work hard enough all your dreams will come true.  But sometimes, we just get stuck.  It's not usually all parts of our life.  We don't really try to get stuck.  But sometimes you just can't get by that one roadblock that's blocking your next step.

The strange thing is that it is different for everyone.  Different timing, different roadblocks, different difficulties.  Sometimes I think that I might be so focused on my own problems that I don't pay enough attention to those around me.  Then at the same time I wonder why they don't seem to notice me either.  Are we so caught up in our own mud that we forget to look around to see who is out there with us?  Aren't we all in this together?  Aren't we supposed to be supporting each other?  So often though we are too busy to take the time.  Too busy moving our own crap out of the way.  Too busy to work together to make it through.

So while I may be stuck in CW, paper correcting land and longing for a different focus for my life, here I am.  Even Payton and Lucas have moved away from Tree Hill and I'm still here, stuck.  I know a better attitude would have me thankful for what I have and where I am and somedays I have that attitude.  But Monday nights can be tough and while the TV is often my friend, if also reminds me that most people my age don't watch the CW, they have a different focus from 7 to 9 at night.  But tonight, I'm stuck.