Life Got in the Way...

I never really thought I would have a blog.  I never really felt like I would have that much to say or that anyone would really care.  But something changed today.  My eyes were opened to the reality of life and once again how we really have no control over a lot of the situations that are dealt to us.  We can't really control if we get an illness, or if a close family member or friend passes away.  We can't control if our employer no longer has room for us or if a car sideswipes us.  We can't control whether or not he or she will fall in love with us or if we a meant to have children.  All we can really control is how we react to these situations.  Who we surround ourselves with for support, what our attitude will be and what our next steps will be.  I find it interesting that as we grow up we are taught to think about the future, to work towards a goal but so often things change in the process of accomplishing those goals.  Life gets in the way.  As I face the next steps of my own life I am lucky to be surrounded by a such strong support system, lead by my husband.  In the end, however, I have to decide to use each experience for what it is.  Whatever it is, a step in faith, an opening of my eyes to my true path or added wisdom from my own journey, I must decide now how this event will shape me.  While at this point in my life I can say this is the hardest thing I've had to face, I'm not naive enough to believe this is the worst it could get.  As I work through the grief and confusion however, I will hang on to the faith that I am on a journey and this step is part of the process of me becoming who I was meant to be.